Saturday, December 3, 2011

Sleep

Sleep precious sleep
I watch you from the deep
caress you while you sleep
and burn you in your dreams

Comfortably curl, up in your bed
safe below your covers and let the sugarplum dreams begin
I twist your dreams to a dark reality
and wake you a million times while you sleep

I cut your back and bruise your arms,
if you think you can stop me go ahead and try
I will come back stronger and madder
and strike back with a vengance.

You are not safe, do not let yourself be fooled by false comforts
I lie in the shadows and feed on your misery
so dream precious dream, and let your dreams turn to dark reality
wake and scream and plead as you wish, you cannot escape, I cloud your mind with mist

The mist lifts as you wake, frightened and lonly
in your despair I draw a breath, feeding and draining you at once.
This is how my clan survives, and you will never be able to hide
Perhaps if you resolved all your greif you wouldn't be visited by a hellish nights sleep.

me or ME

Do you want me to be me or ME
the me you know is loving and kind,
supportive and comforting,
warm and soft, understanding and encouraging,
she watches what she says and how she acts,
and has a tight hold over her emotions and actions.

ME on the other hand is cruel and uncaring,
cold and hard, demonic and calculating,
she wants to rip people to shreds emotionally,
and stop on those who anger her, she has no control.

A battle wages on inside of everyone.
This battle wages on inside of me.
You call me an angel, but are you sure I am not a demon,
hiding and biding my time, like a spider in the web,
waiting for the perfect opportunity to strike.
ME has imagined playing with their emotions,
drawing them in and crushing them.
me would never let ME do those things,
for no one would ever show me love or compassion if
ME was let loose on the human race.

So be careful what you say when you tell me to be myself
there are two hiding within, battling and strugling
and one day the other will win.
I sit here, like an angel on a throne, loved by almost all
but I wish to dwell in darkness and mayhem.
me feeds ME with drama and despair, sometimes causing injury so ME can feed.
me feels like a broken mirror, cursed and ugly and tossed aside.
I am learning to cope with ME, but are you sure your ready?
You tell me you can take it all, but ME and me truly wonders if you could.
We both love you, unconditionally, but when ME takes over I pray your capacatiy to forgive
is all enduring.